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Name: Kate
Birthday: 2/29/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: I write songs... lol thats about all i can do...
Expertise: Im good at ummmm well... ummm... well... umm... i dunno...
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
10/31/2002
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| I want to love every single person I meet. I'm realizing that when someone has different beliefs than you do there is an immediate tension that takes place. How fast the tension goes away is where I believe the problem sits. I love being able to hang out with someone and they know that I'm not going to force anything on them. I love talking about Jesus and I love hearing what people have to say about their own experiences. I'm always fascinated to hear people's stories and why they believe what they believe. In a way, it makes me ask myself questions and reflect on my own faith.
This simplicity is getting harder now-a-days though. People are getting more and more jaded by christians or the church. It makes it hard to connect with that wall of tension that people have built over the years. What I want to know is how we can make that wall disappear. My only answer is Love. Until the day people learn to love unconditionally, we will always have this awkward second of questionable judging that takes place when you shake someone's hand for the first time.
On another note, I turned 20 last weekend and I actually felt the change. Usually my birthday isn't a big deal and my age means nothing but for some reason 20 has quite the ring to it. I said an easy goodbye to my teenager years and I'm definitely ready for my 20s. Saying twenty is way easier than saying nineteen. No longer am I completely ashamed of my age. I know 20 is still young compared to all my friends but... I'm ok with that. Finally.
For my third note, I'm realizing how uncomfortable booking a show is. I don't like it. Booking a show is not fun for me at all and I have no clue what I am doing. I also hate being a solo girl artist who has absolutely no one with me. Makes it scary when I am talking to a strange man on the other side of the telephone and he is telling about the venue and then also asks me to coffee. I don't see how coffee is relevant to me playing there and I am most definitely not stupid.
Plus, I need a new job. I have been told to work at Fido because the money is pretty good. But even the thought of working at Fido stresses me out. Don't ask me why, it just does. I would much rather work with screaming kids all day rather than crazy stressed out business people waiting in line for their coffee. May sound way off to most of you but for some reason I don't think so. Probably because Fido is the one place I have been able to go and just sit. So if I work there... I lose the one thing I love about it.
What am I doing with my life. Bigger question is what does God want me to do with my life??? | | |
| Normalcy is what I am craving. It's something that hasn't been in my life in a long time and I'm starting to feel restless. I'm getting sick of the relationships that just come in and out of my life so easily. I begin to put my heart into one and it turns around and slaps me in the face.
Life is full of laughter, tears, securities, insecurities, passion, disappointments, choices, pain, and accomplishments.
Communication in relationships is key. When one person feels one way, the feeling wont go away until it is talked about and dealt with. If it is never dealt with... it will never go away. Jesus wept for a reason, to release the pain. It cannot be bottled inside or else it will make the soul die. Whether it dies in jealousy, bitterness, etc... neither one is better than the other.
I'm learning that I like to talk things out. I need to know why someone has said something they said or did whatever they did. I always need to let someone know why I did what I did. If I can't release that, it bottles up and drives me insane. What do you do when someone wont let you talk about it though? Things are not easily forgotten no matter who you are.
Pride is a funny thing. It creates such shallow relationships that will never deepen no matter how much time is spent with the person. If someone can't see/admit their faults or mistakes there will never be a balance.
I want friendships that call me out. I want to be able to laugh and have fun just hanging out and enjoying each others company. When you're hurt say you are hurt and get it out in the open so it can be dealt with. That way I can say when I am hurt and you will give me the same respect I gave you. If you respect someone as a living soul you will listen to them when they are hurt. When you don't listen, they stay hurt and that just prolongs the never ending tension. The tension that so longs to be eased.
Relationships are hard. Every kind of relationship.
I have a lot going on in my heart right now and there is SO much more I could talk about but I need to get up at 6am for work. Maybe on another night when I feel like typing my little fingers right off my two hands.
Life is good but life is hard as well. Realize that and deal with it, don't ignore it.
-Katie | | |
| my life is a never ending swirl of colors and shades.
i guess that's what makes it beautiful... | | |
| This year has been insane and it is already almost over. I can't believe that I am where I am right now. All the good and bad decisions I've made. The pain and the blessings that have taken place that made me grow up in so many different ways. The friends that I have made that make my life full and exciting. I can't even list out all the things each individual friend has done for me personally. I have finally come out of my shell this year! After all those years of sort of being the shy girl and randomly is outgoing are over. I have learned how to voice my opinion and deal with awkward situations. I have also learned about my heart and what I do that damages it. I have amazing roommates who keep me in check with lots of things that help me learn and grow. I have friends who have conversations that make me think and want to know more about the world.
Spiritually I have grown and deepened my relationship with Christ. I have tested the boundaries that have been set and have learned why I do what I have been taught all these years. I have made major mistakes but learned greatly from them and know that God has mercy and will never leave my side. I know that I will go to church even without my parents telling me too because I know on my own what my heart needs. I am in no way perfect but I definitely am constantly trying to seek after God's heart and what He wants for me. I screw up A LOT and usually choose to be selfish but of course through all of that God is merciful and teaches me something important.
I have set major goals for myself this year and I never know what is going to happen. If there is one thing I could say I learned this year I would say, you never know what tomorrow will bring. All I know is I have to keep working on my goals and try to do what I feel lead to do and God will do wonders. But no matter what my plans are his plans will prevail.
Top 2 movies of the year: Bella, Once
Records I obsessed over for at least 2 weeks nonstop: Paolo Nutini, Cartel, Ryan Adams, Phil Wickham, Britt's Dance Mixes, Matt Pond PA, Rachael Yamagata, Rooney, Ben Kweller, Autovaughn, Sigur Ros, The Starting Line, Aaron Espe, Athlete, Augustana, Eisley, The Format, Limbeck, Hillsong, James Morrison, Jet, John Legend, and Jonezetta.
Favorite TV shows: The Office, Gossip Girl, America's Next Top Model
(I know... I'm embarrassed and ashamed...)
Favorite books: Cold Tangerines, The Great Divorce
Favorite coffee shop: Fido
Favorite memory: I honestly don't know if I can answer this because I have so many different memories with lots of different people. Each memory has their own joke and their own special moment in them. Usually if I'm either hanging out with Britt or Lisa there is a good time to be had.
Most embarrassing moment: Probably when I freaked out at Harris Teeter when Ben Folds came in and I hid behind the magazines. I honestly couldn't look at him... I would start giggling like a little school girl.
Stuff I wish I had done: Cornerstone, played way more shows
Things I learned: Expect nothing, never assume, tomorrow will bring something completely different, be humble, learn from your mistakes, try new things, moderation is key, love people
What the Lord has taught me: I am beautiful and He is jealous for my heart because I give it to so many other things. I am loved and I am wanted.
I am looking forward to 2008 and what it will bring into my life. I have a feeling its going to be an interesting year.
-Katie Workman | | |
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